Thursday, November 12, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Wind & Fire
The icon and highly respectable name in fashion, Diane Von Furstenberg once said,
"Absence is to love as wind is to fire. If the fire is small and weak to begin with, then the wind will blow it out, but if the fire is big, then the wind will only intensify it."
I absolutely LOVE this quote! It's a little scary when thinking about long distance relationships, but completely true.
"Absence is to love as wind is to fire. If the fire is small and weak to begin with, then the wind will blow it out, but if the fire is big, then the wind will only intensify it."
I absolutely LOVE this quote! It's a little scary when thinking about long distance relationships, but completely true.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Bittersweet Love
Black mascara stained tissues fill my bedroom floor. I never even knew it was possible to feel this alone.
Ever since you left I haven't been able to think straight. I never asked for this. I never thought things would have turned out this way. Never in a million years. The idea that I have absolutely no control in a situation that is going to affect my life is a scary thought. It’s like watching a train wreck happen right in front of my eyes.
They say some things don’t work out like they should. Maybe they’re right, maybe they’re wrong. Maybe you were always meant to leave. Maybe I’m supposed to find myself while you’re away. Do some soul searching while you’re gone. I’ve got time. I’m sure you’re doing the same.
I envy the couples I see passing me by on the city streets. I have half of what they have. I have you, but not your presence. I have your memory but not your touch. I want so badly to just be able to kiss your lips, hold your hand, and see your smile once again.
Yeah, modern technology is great. But it’s not enough. I need You, not your picture. Are webcams and sporadic phone calls suppose to hold me through months, even years without seeing your face, touching your skin, feeling the warmth and safety of your arms around me.
I love you whether you’re right next to me or a thousand miles away. It's just difficult that’s all. You told me you couldn't ask me to wait for you. The thing is, you never had to. I was waiting for your return before you ever left and I’ll continue to patiently wait until the next time we meet.
Whatever happens, please just don't forget about me because I will never forget about you. In the mysterious and distant place of the future, I don't know if we will end up together. For now I'll keep my memories close to my heart and continue to re-live them until the moment we can create even more.
This is my personal story that has also been posted on a different blog, (OUR BRITTLE LITTLE BONES-blogspot) I decided to post it here as well since it correlates, and my own story has been asked about.)
Ever since you left I haven't been able to think straight. I never asked for this. I never thought things would have turned out this way. Never in a million years. The idea that I have absolutely no control in a situation that is going to affect my life is a scary thought. It’s like watching a train wreck happen right in front of my eyes.
They say some things don’t work out like they should. Maybe they’re right, maybe they’re wrong. Maybe you were always meant to leave. Maybe I’m supposed to find myself while you’re away. Do some soul searching while you’re gone. I’ve got time. I’m sure you’re doing the same.
I envy the couples I see passing me by on the city streets. I have half of what they have. I have you, but not your presence. I have your memory but not your touch. I want so badly to just be able to kiss your lips, hold your hand, and see your smile once again.
Yeah, modern technology is great. But it’s not enough. I need You, not your picture. Are webcams and sporadic phone calls suppose to hold me through months, even years without seeing your face, touching your skin, feeling the warmth and safety of your arms around me.
I love you whether you’re right next to me or a thousand miles away. It's just difficult that’s all. You told me you couldn't ask me to wait for you. The thing is, you never had to. I was waiting for your return before you ever left and I’ll continue to patiently wait until the next time we meet.
Whatever happens, please just don't forget about me because I will never forget about you. In the mysterious and distant place of the future, I don't know if we will end up together. For now I'll keep my memories close to my heart and continue to re-live them until the moment we can create even more.
This is my personal story that has also been posted on a different blog, (OUR BRITTLE LITTLE BONES-blogspot) I decided to post it here as well since it correlates, and my own story has been asked about.)
Monday, November 9, 2009
Just Friends
I still think about you sometimes. And I hate that. I hate that I wonder if you are happy, how your religion is going, how you are doing as a person. I wonder if you are happy, or if you are just pretending to be happy. I wonder if you finally found a girl you felt was good enough for you.
I wonder if you regret deciding we couldn’t be friends. I know that with the distance nothing else would have worked out. And I was okay with that. I felt that there was a reason we got along so well and could talk for hours at a time. I felt that we could be those types of friends that talk once or twice a month and get along great.
When you told me you have ‘girlfriends or potential girlfriends, but no friends that are girls’ I felt like I could be the exception, I was the exception for everything else, why not that? We had never met; we couldn’t have friends of friends watch out for the other. What we had was simple. We enjoyed each other. And I think that is what makes great friends. And you stopped that. And I understand, and this is not me trying to change your decision on that. You felt it was what was best for you. You could not have a friendship with me.
And that time you just said hi, I thought it was because you had changed your mind and you decided you could handle a friendship with me, you could handle talking to me every once in a while and us laughing and smiling. And just being ourselves around each other, what more could you ask for in a friend?
I told you I could be friends with you. I told you that that was fine with me. And I may have been lying, but that is because I felt you could teach me so much, and over time I would have been okay with it. But you didn’t allow that.
Wow, I am rambling a lot. I am just writing this to tell you even though we have never met, and we probably never will, I still think about you. And if you ever change your mind, I still want to be your friend. I still care about you, and want you to be happy.
And don’t worry, I know you have a thing about cutting ties, please do not think you have to respond to this, I expect you to not respond. That is okay. I just wanted you to know I am here for you still.
Jessica
I wonder if you regret deciding we couldn’t be friends. I know that with the distance nothing else would have worked out. And I was okay with that. I felt that there was a reason we got along so well and could talk for hours at a time. I felt that we could be those types of friends that talk once or twice a month and get along great.
When you told me you have ‘girlfriends or potential girlfriends, but no friends that are girls’ I felt like I could be the exception, I was the exception for everything else, why not that? We had never met; we couldn’t have friends of friends watch out for the other. What we had was simple. We enjoyed each other. And I think that is what makes great friends. And you stopped that. And I understand, and this is not me trying to change your decision on that. You felt it was what was best for you. You could not have a friendship with me.
And that time you just said hi, I thought it was because you had changed your mind and you decided you could handle a friendship with me, you could handle talking to me every once in a while and us laughing and smiling. And just being ourselves around each other, what more could you ask for in a friend?
I told you I could be friends with you. I told you that that was fine with me. And I may have been lying, but that is because I felt you could teach me so much, and over time I would have been okay with it. But you didn’t allow that.
Wow, I am rambling a lot. I am just writing this to tell you even though we have never met, and we probably never will, I still think about you. And if you ever change your mind, I still want to be your friend. I still care about you, and want you to be happy.
And don’t worry, I know you have a thing about cutting ties, please do not think you have to respond to this, I expect you to not respond. That is okay. I just wanted you to know I am here for you still.
Jessica
Friday, October 9, 2009
Brand New
Hiiii(:
So after doing countless online blog searches about long distance relationships (in any form) and having no luck, i decided to start one of my own. Please send in any stories or personal experiences you might have about this topic. My e-mail is SleepingBeauty@rome.com I'll post them as soon as I recieve them. Photos would be an amazing contrabution as well! Comments are appricatied. Please send in your stories!!
So after doing countless online blog searches about long distance relationships (in any form) and having no luck, i decided to start one of my own. Please send in any stories or personal experiences you might have about this topic. My e-mail is SleepingBeauty@rome.com I'll post them as soon as I recieve them. Photos would be an amazing contrabution as well! Comments are appricatied. Please send in your stories!!
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